True Indeed

In today' time it very easy to let go off things in life/relationships, avoid, revenge, dump & not hold on to IT.
But still there is a truth, beauty in going all the way through the drama, vacumm and still holding on to it. :)Cos it really tells you that you are indeed special

Have a Little faith in me

Ive been loving you, for such a long, long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
Cause for us, there is no end
And all you gotta do, is have a little faith in me
And your love, gives me strength enough to
Have a little faith in me ....and yourself

Emotional Hydraulics

People who know kayaking and other river sports know that there are areas of the river where the water flows in a dangerous circular motion. Instead of moving forward, it turns back on itself. Such a spot can be almost impossible to escape from. In the same way, we can get stuck in emotional hydraulics.

There are periods of self-absorption. If you are self-absorbed, you refer everything back to your own interests and desires - nothing much gets in or out. It is a spot impossible to escape.

Sometimes continuous oppression leads to tiredness i.e: carrying out the same struggle again for too long with no acceptance. Another avenue could be apathy & indifference-i.e: no more temptation no matter how attractive the external may seem to, or simply leading to defensiveness i.e: neither acceptance or rejection.

Maybe it is all about soul searching, letting negative attitudes/patterns & non acceptance go away/letgo with positive self reflection & renewal ( whether accepted/cared by others or not)
&
Say "Though I may have lost my way, the light of truth has saved the day. Now every day, in every way, I am getting better and better and I will be on my way again".

Harvesting Season- Realization + Oppression

Ask a farmer about the harvesting season and it brings all smiles to him/her.
He /she reaps a bountiful reward for the hard work in his harvest and perhaps represents his/her own harvest usually after long struggle.
We have such harvesting moments/seasons. It clearly means to us -we have fulfilled a creative venture, realized a dream and now must deal with the consequences of that fulfillment.
The realization of a creative vision, however, often carries with it the weight of responsibility. It is so strange sometimes that in the entire process we are unwilling to let go of excessive responsibility or lack the freshness of the original vision after it has been fulfilled or we imbibe what we see around.


It is so funny in some cases when we start things we have the spirit of the Fool so carefree, excited not thinking about the pitfalls but as we move ahead we take too much burden. The burden is at times so difficult to let go or lead a balance approach because the venture & the realization suddenly has more worth than our own mental, emotional , spiritual health/existence.

Often we see in personal relationships ( which is very confusing) " one who bends backwards" takes responsibility to make it work and the other person is not even aware or ignores the fact that how much responsibility the other person is taking.

In all I am beginning to think-

Is it that the moment one feels- carrying the excess burden, heart in pain, oppression, giving too much, over committed one needs to stop working hard or at least pace oneself in a balanced way.

or

Is it knowingly/unknowingly misuse of one's energy

or

Is it one's destiny - i.e:One will have to fight uphill for every little gain. Each step will feel like a struggle which maybe only one's imagination

or

Is it the way how life is - Do your karma and never expect anything, it will all happen for you good

Soup for today

"A gentlemen goes to a restaurant and orders tomato soup. A few minutes pass and he changes his mind and changes his order to pumpkin soup. A few pass again and this time he changes his order to vegetable soup. He then gets upset and complains to the waiter that his soup is taking too long to arrive "

So the Point is to stick with one thing till you achieve it and be persistent. True indeed -every seed has a gestation period, so it may take time (sometimes.

Thinking Over

I been searching for a reason
and Im running out of time
I can feel its the season
its time to make up my mind

And I cant really tell u what i am gonna do
there are so many thought i my head
there are two road to walk down and one road to chose
thinking over the things u said

Am i ready forever
God show me a sig
Cos if were gonna be togehter
The its gotta be divine and
I cant really tell u what i am gonna do

There so may thought in my head
there are 2 road to walk down and one road to chose
thinking over the things u said

he wants to love me for life
he wants to be with me every morning i awake
he wants to hold me through the night
Father which way shud i go
i cant really see
O i really cant see..only u know help me the way.. even if I am at the edge.....

Dice --SingSong

Nobody loves the dream you and I have, Nobody loves the dream i have, doesnt matter what anyone thinks or says, somewhere in my heart i am always dancing with you in the summer rain.

We gotta hold on to wat we got, we got each other and thats all life and all love and we'll give it a shot.Take my hand and we'll make it I swear-- Here !!!

Wish I knew you before, Happy ending every single day.

Hoping Hope

Ture Story

One time a young girl had suffered many years of severe mental and physical pain.
For many years she contemplated suicide till one day she decided she could go on no more.Overwhelmed with endless pain,anxiety and suffering,she ordered a gun, gave away all her possessions and resolved to leave it all behind and kill herself.
BY a twist of fate that day she met a few angels in her dreams who were flying all around in white dress with beautiful wings, thet looked at her and told her life would improve in time, and things would be ok,,,
the girl held onto those few words of encouragement, and she is still alive today, and is able to help others have hope and strength to go on for another day another week, another year.

Moral of the story,
First and foremost, make sure your advice and comments have some direction and hope, offer encouragement wherever possible. Dont hurt someone by being soo manipulative but care

Energy

I dont know when I stopped reading my OSHO Books but today when i was thinking about a few of them, this is what I got reminded of --

There was person in one of the sessions who asked a Question --"I have a feeling i am storing everything inside myself, i am closed and locked. I just feel I am holding myself together inside. I cant flow".

We sometimes have tendencies to either hold the energy too much inside-- i.e: in control or do excessive flow which becomes destructive. It is very important to channelise your energies. Some people go in extermities and keep flipping back and forth and not accepting the fact we need to work with both the energies seamlessly and choicelessly and not thrust upon ourselves either of the options especially out of circumstances. Authentic is usually confused as overflowing and not keeping a check, these energies to flow, and to let it happen naturally.
I recently felt that if you keep trying, everytime trying and nothing happens. This is when your energy is flowing in one direction and you are forcing ureself to move in the other direction.
Another important channelsing not to keep repeating the wrong words like " iam holding" " its not working out" it will itself lead to contradiction of what you want. By making contradiction ( which i do most of the times)it lead to being half in place and missing the centre of the energy as you are doing it half hearted and in doubt and questioning your own energy.

What I have realised ( not implemented) is to trust your own energy and flow with it. At times the leakage of the energy happens when one begins to think " this is all a waste, this relationship is a waste". Eventually it is important to know the centre always throws to back to periphery and periphery back to the centre. Maybe it all about the energy and sometimes it is important to put yourself aside.

Picturesque-- Mineome

Mi, Neo, Me were having a conversation in the middle of the night, day break, breakfast, lunch and at work in their heads.

Mi- It takes a long time, effort to build something and very easy to break.
Neo- It is difficult to value something when you get it easily
Me- There is huge difference in diminshing of role vs. erasal of role
Mi- It is easy to move on and difficult to hold on
Neo- It is easy to live together for a day but difficult to live together forever
Me- It is easy to recall sad moments but difficult to recall the happy ones
Mi- Diamonds are not womens' best friends, they are because
Neo- Most friends are selfish, they only talk the walk and never act
Me -Whiners are actually losers
Mi- Lines of the song "Rehna tu jaisa hai tu, thoda sa dard tu thoda khushi"--- Is very true !
Neo- Sometimes no matter what you do or give you will never be excellent at it.
Me- Difficult to identify who the culprit is --the mood swings in general or mood swings which ruin relationships or imaginations which ruin moods and then ruin relationships
Mi- Easy to start something difficult to take it all the way through
Neo- Running in parks is good for health... running after people isnt
Me- Easy to say it will not work out ... difficult to work towards it
Neo- When something is not important/valuable/old you will always throw it away. Valuables are always kept safe.
Mi- Many a times you believe you will be a wonderful mother, but you dont know when?

Movie- Diarios de motocicleta

Diarios de motocicleta aka Motorcycle Diaries is a Spanish Movie. It is a journey and a memoir of Ernesto Guevera who later become the world famous Marxist revolutionary Che Guevera.
The memior is a journey which Che Guevera ( who is a doctor) and his friend Grenado ( abiochemist) take on for an adventure across Latin America initially on a motorcycle. They travel to different countries, learn , observe, transform their own identity in the process. The movie is a must watch and fascinating for many reasons, atleast it fascinated me:-

1) It shows how Guevera and his friend Alberto transform their own self by observation and how life teaches experiences which made them who they were.
2) They encounter poverty stricken peasants, couple forced to road becos of communist beliefs, treatment given to workers. How all of such incidents motivates him.
3) Dream to peacefully revolutionize Latin America. To realise how important it to bring about a change without guns.
4) The journey to SAn Pablo, Peru's lepers colony is very moving. How the river seperated the healthy from the sick. How he goes against the rules not to wear gloves and shake hands with lepers.
5) Youthful motivation & Compassion which Che Guevera shows towards to Lepers and considers them as normal beings in need of love and support rather than bein seperated.
6) It was the symbolic moment in the the movie which makes him an iconic and he realises his calling. He rejects money, prestige, position and turns to the path which he beleived is of respecting, honoring, considering all humans as equals.

Truly interesting......and conscience pricking.

Pep Me

These words sometimes hit right through me and usually give a different perspective of life and in short "Pep Me"

Work like you don't need the money,
Love like you've never been hurt,
Dance like nobody is watching.

Bus of Silence- Real Phoneys-- True Words

This is an incident which recently occured while I was riding in a bus full of people from my Home to the Airport. There were particularly two gentlemen sitting in the seats right behind me and who have returned from US (both on long term assignments) about less than a month back. This is a snippet of the conversations they had over the duration 1 hour and 40 minutes.

Brag 1 :- Its so hot in India…especially Bangalore… wonder how people live without AC
Brag 2:- One time when I was in Arizona it felt so hot… this is worst than this.. I think India will never change. Same when I left for US 5 years back.
Me (thinking):- Maybe too Hot in India… but aren’t these guys sitting in the A/C bus worth only 150 INR

Brag 1:- Indigo Charges are so high 4000 INR and the airhostesses are horrible looking ..all brown skinned. Plus no water or free food. India hasn’t changed still
Brag 2:- Haan yaar, in US even the cheapest and bad airlines has pretty fair looking women airhostess and plus atleast you get peanuts and juice… Some value for Money.
We Indians cant compete in many things with US.
Me (thinking):- 4000 INR equals to almost 100-120 $ isn’t it a usual price for airfare. Arent these guys brown skinned themselves.

Brag 1:- In US in every state the food is great.
Brag 2 :- I am very religious .I used to go to Gurudwara and have langar ( free food) and man it was awesome.. much better than the langars we get in India…much better than the Golden Temple langar.
Me (thinking): -- DO people go to Gurudwara to pray or to have langar and then malign Golden Temple itself.

Brag 2: I want to give proper education to my children in future; India is not the right place.
Brag 1: Yes US must be good people to settle, educate children and live a good life
Me (thinking):- Isn’t education supposed to be best in India, weren’t you two brags educated in India and aren’t these Indians companies for which you both work for which took you to US for better opportunities?

Brag 1:- I have to come every year to see my parents else I would never come back to this Corrupted Place
Brag 2:- I agree, I have to get a new project and I am praying that I don’t get an offshore project where I Have to stay here .I am trying for a new project in UK or Germany…
Me ( turned around and asked)- Excuse me as you both Indians born and brought up in India.
Brag 1 and Brag 2 :- Yes we are Indians
Me ( asked again)- DO you both work for Internationl travel agenices?
Brag 1 and Brag 2 ( irritated about to hit me):- No, we work for Indian IT Companies.