Thursday, June 26, 2008

Cope & Reason for Hope

Piccaso (artist),Mark Vonnegut (son of the writer Kurt Vonnegut), John Nash (mathematician, winner of the Nobel Prize in economics and subject of the book and movie A Beautiful Mind) Syd Barrett (founder of Pink Floyd),Buddy Bolden (jazz pioneer),Eduard Einstein (son of Albert Einstein) are a few famous people who had Schizophrenia and yet were successful.
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It was about a sometime back when a young man of 20-25 years old was lying in the street in front of our house. My father had come back from the vegetable market ,when he saw the man. He immediately went to the young man who was trying to say something but couldnot express, he started telling about some strange stories. Some people standing around said that the young man was a mad & had problems in his head. He was crying as he hadnt eaten anything ,I suppose since morning/days.My mother made some paranthas and my father kept it in front of him, it was sad sight that he couldnot even properly hold it. Seeing this my mother was in tears and so was my father and then my father himself fed the young man thinking he was also someone's sick child.The young man ate then slept in the street, next morning he was no where to be found.It was days/weeks later my parents got to know, that the young man was practically disowned by his family members as he was diagnosed with mental illness some few years ago, they took care but later couldnot cope with him and was left on his own. Left to fight on his own with his mental illness of which he had no idea known to us as Schizophrenia.

Schizophrenia one out of the numerous mental illnesses. It orginates from the Greek word-- Schizien "to split" and Phren " the mind" thus -splitting of the mind. It is a psyhciatric diagnosis that describes mental disorder with respect to impairments in perceptions, delusions etc. Eugen Bleuler in 1908 first coined the term Schizophrenia.
A few symptoms are :- Hallucinations, Disintergrated & disorganized thinking, delusions,inapproriate reactions, psychosis etc.
The symptoms in children and adults are different.In the recent years it has been observed that its mostly occurs at about 18-25 years.Sad but true it cannot be cured, family members & loved ones are the people who can help one cope up with the illness.The ability to care for a schizophrenic is associated with emotional strength & determination , financial reserves & above all time.

Thus Family & loved ones are the BIGGEST HELP !!! It has been found out that family support is a biggest factor in improving from the situation.
  1. Family should not shun responsiblity of the person,not to feel ashamed that someone in the family has it.
  2. Acceptance is very important.Cursing your fate, feeling guilty, blaming one another never helps. Mourn, forgive and move on. To act out of resentment & drama between family memebers makes it worse for the person being treated also.
  3. It is a MEDICAL ILLNESS and requires treatment with responsbility.
  4. It is NO ONE's FAULT, essential that the person is diagnosed & treated well.
  5. A caring, safe environment that allows for as much freedom of action is very much required,Hostility & criticism in the environment at home should be reduced or eliminated.
  6. Important that the person takes prescribed medication as per the doses and family members need to ensure that it strictly followed else it leads to severe relapse.
  7. In extreme cases side effects to person happens thus important to inform the doctor at very onset.
  8. Educate oneself with the pattern of the schizophrenic person. Relapses are frequent , some patience is required--emotional straining does no good.
  9. Indiviual psychotherapy is essential for the person.
  10. Essential to make a daily rountine atleast an attempt is required. If possible help them work and find a job. Yes-- A Job !!
  11. Compliment the person on achieving goals, remember criticism does a lot of harm.
  12. Set attainable goals for them.
  13. Realize that caring for the person is emotionally, mentally, physically tiring & exhausting. Important to take care of yourself too.
  14. Often spouses, children or parents get drained to a very large extend in the caring process -- after effects show later.
  15. Important to have regular meetings with the doctor, and keep note of the behaviorial pattern in the person & discuss on evey meeting.
  16. Talk to the person frequently, listen to them esp when they are in trouble.
  17. Sometime Schizophrenics get into Substance abuse like marijuna, or other drugs under no state and the person should get into that situation before or after diagnosis.
  18. Boost up the moral confidence of the person, they can lead normal, independent & satisfying lives too just like any of us.

So this in the end,the single most important thing: Is to love, care, appreciate and help the patient move ahead and live anIndependent life like an independent indiviual. Thank you for reading this article and if you ever come across a person with Schizophreniatry and help them in some way. Worse thing to do is to leave the person dieing on the road and let them cope with illness by themselves.

So Always Take care & cope with a reason called as HOPE.

Just for Kicks-Disorder in American Courts

These are from a book called Disorder in the American Courts, and are things people actually said in court, word for word, taken down and now published by court reporters who had the torment of staying calm while these exchanges were actually taking place.
Disclaimer: Please read at your own risk. :))...:))

****ATTORNEY: What gear were you in at the moment of the impact?
WITNESS: Gucci sweats and Reeboks

***ATTORNEY: This myasthenia gravis, does it affect your memory at all?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: And in what ways does it affect your memory?
WITNESS: I forget.
ATTORNEY: You forget? Can you give us an example of something you forgot

***ATTORNEY: What was the first thing your husband said to you that morning?
WITNESS: He said, 'Where am I, Cathy?'
ATTORNEY: And why did that upset you?
WITNESS: My name is Susan

***ATTORNEY: Do you know if your daughter has ever been involved in voodoo?
WITNESS: We both do.
ATTORNEY: Voodoo?
WITNESS: We do.
ATTORNEY: You do?
WITNESS: Yes, voodoo

***ATTORNEY: The youngest son, the twenty-one-year-old, how old is he?
WITNESS: Uh, he's twenty-one

**ATTORNEY: Were you present when your picture was taken?
WITNESS: You're kidding me, right

***ATTORNEY: She had three children, is that correct?
WITNESS: Yes.
ATTORNEY: How many were boys?
WITNESS: None.
ATTORNEY: Were there any girls?WITNESS: Are you shitt'in me? Your Honor, I think I need a differentattorney. Can I get a new attorney?

**ATTORNEY: How was your first marriage terminated?
WITNESS: By death.
ATTORNEY: And by whose death was it terminated?
WITNESS: Now whose death do you suppose terminated it

***ATTORNEY: Can you describe the individual?
WITNESS: He was about medium height and had a beard.
ATTORNEY: Was this a male or a female?
WITNESS: Guess

**ATTORNEY: Is your appearance here this morning pursuant to a deposition notice, which I sent to your attorney?
WITNESS: No, this is how I dress when I go to work

**ATTORNEY: Doctor, how many of your autopsies have you performed on deadpeople?WITNESS: All my autopsies are performed on dead people. Would you like torephrase that question

**ATTORNEY: Are you qualified to give a urine sample?
WITNESS: Huh....are you qualified to ask that question

**ATTORNEY: ALL your responses MUST be oral, OK? What school did you go to?WITNESS: Oral

**ATTORNEY: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?WITNESS: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m..
ATTORNEY: And Mr. Denton was dead at the time?
WITNESS: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing anautopsy on him

**ATTORNEY: Now doctor, isn't it true that when a person dies in his sleep, hedoesn't know about it until the next morning?
WITNESS: Did you actually pass the bar exam

And the best for last: ---****ATTORNEY: Doctor, before you performed the autopsy, did you check for apulse?WITNESS: No.ATTORNEY: Did you check for blood pressure?WITNESS: No.ATTORNEY: Did you check for breathing?
WITNESS: No.ATTORNEY: So, then it is possible that the patient was alive when you beganthe autopsy?WITNESS: No.ATTORNEY: How can you be so sure, Doctor?WITNESS: Because his brain was sitting on my desk in a jar.
ATTORNEY: I see, but could the patient have still been alive, nevertheless?WITNESS: Yes, he could have been alive and practicing law.*

Friday, June 20, 2008

Nana- "Carrom Board"

The train reached the platform no. 8, everyone whom Papa had gone to receive came alongwith him in the brand new car. They all drove from the station to home.The car reached home,everyone got down and Mumma greeted everyone and showed them their rooms.When Mumma showed Nana his room,he spoke to Mumma.
Nana- "Where are the children?"
Mumma- " They must be playing, yeh these days they are just learning some games"
Nana-" Hmmm... u must be teaching them"
Mumma ( changing the sofa & bed sheets)-" Not much time, so they learn usually by themselves, ready for lunch"
Nana- "Gimme a few minutes"
Mumma went to make the dinning table for Lunch. Nana went to the lawn, he saw Lil Bulie Boy smiling ( with his new found teeth showing). Nana dint see her, he went outside, searched around and went straight to the new by cars.Not so much surprised, after looking under the 4 th car he saw Mishti lying under the 5th car.

Nana-"Shoo, dirty girl why ar u hiding here"
Mishti (innocently)- " Oh Nana, when did u come?"
Nana- " Liar, I knew u saw us and immediately ran away to hide, Bad"
Mishti- " U come and I can't play and I am now 8 years 3 months old and i need to play".
Nana- " Come out, I have surprises for you"
Mishti came out, brushing her blue frock. Nana & Mishti went home. After lunch Mishti forced Nana to show her the surprises. Nana took both Mishti & Lil Bulie Boy to his room.

Mishti- "Nana only me not for Lil Bulie Boy"
Nana- " No not good, he will also get surprises"
Mishti ( angry & teasing)- " No not for this Lil Mule Mop"
Lil Bulie Boy- " I am not Mule Mop okay... U stupid... U are Misho ( meaning Liar)"
At this both started fighting, Nana somehow stopped them and gave each a present, Mishti one pink bowed frock & Lil Bulie Boy a superman dress. Then there was a third present, for which theyboth fought, again. To their surprise it was a common present- A Carrom Board.

Lil Bulie Boy- "Nana, we have been trying to learn Carrom for last one month, we play with Pally the boy with the carrom board"
Mishti- " Wow, now we have our own Carrom Board, Oh No, but this is a very old one ".
Nana- "" Yes, but it is yours now"
Nana smiled and all three of them went where everyone was having lunch.
Within a few days, Nana taught both Mishti & Lil Bulie Boy - The Carrom game. On winning the their respective games with the other children in the block, both Mishti & Lil Bulie Boy came jumping back home
Mishti- "Nana Nana... I won 5 games"
Lil Bulie Boy- " Nana Nana...I won 1 game".
Nana-" Hi Fi, Good Job"
Lil Bulie Boy-" Nana I could have won more if I had a new Carrom Board, this is blinding"

Nanajust smiled and went back to read an Urdu Book on his relaxing chairMishti & Lil Bulie Boy went to their room but they cudnt find their "OWn Carrom Board"
Mishti- "Nana Nana, the "Old Carrom Board is missing", its not there"
Lil Bulie Boy (crying)-" Mishti, Nana, No carrom board"
Nana (surprised)- " Oh is it"
Lil Bulie Boy still crying & Mishti on the verge of crying. Suddenly a voice came from behind.

Mumma- " Hey turn around"
Both of them turned around and saw Mumma holding a new Carrom Board with a note. Both jumped with joy saying Yipee Yippee.Then they turned and saw a note stuck on it which read -
Mishti & Lil Bulie Boy Congratualtions, there is nothing more I want than you both to be always jumping with joy.You both will grow up to be very good human beings, of which I am sure. Always work hard & you will get what you deserve.Never hurt anyone, always love the person who loves you, very few people genuinely love you of which I am one.Love Nana
Both hugged and kissed Nana, saying - " We love you Nana and you are the best"
Mishti- " Even when I grow old, and you are old too, I will still love you, you will miss me right"
Nana (smiling with tears)-" Yes I will always care & love you, even long after I have died"
There was little that both Mishti & Lil Bulie Boy understood then ( something which they would understand later).

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Nana- " Butterscotch Ice-cream"

Butterscotch Ice-Cream
She "(shouted from the Main Gate) -"Nana Nana Nana... I am back home... Nana Nana" saying this she became Silent.
Nana-" Come to the Dinning Hall, your favourite dishes for lunch is here"
Again there was silence, Nana got a little worried.
Nana (called out again)--" Yohoo....Butterscotch Icecream after lunch, quickly quickly I am counting 1-2-3-4-5".
Again there was silence, Nana was now even more worried. Hurriedly Nana started searching the house,the terrace, the lawn but still couldnt find her. Quickly he traced his steps to the window on the left wall in Main Hall from the Entrance.
Then he turned towards to the lawn to open the window from outside & he was shocked again for the nth time.... Mishti was sitting all folded between the wide grills of the window & happily eating ButterScotch Icecream.
Mishti jumped and went straight to Nani. Nana closed the window & angrily went to Nani's room to scold Mishti. Seeing Nana Mishti started crying loudly.
Mishti- " Nana Nana I am hurt.. my legs are scratched from that window grill see, its hurting now".
Nana quickly got a dettol bottle & cotton to clean Mishti's wounds. Mishti started crying again. Nana -" You are a small girl and when small girls get hurt they cry loudly".
Hearing this Mishti got angry and went to her room & shut the door. Nana went inside the room & saw Mishti lying on her bed with green & pink flowers and crying. He knew why she was crying .
Nana (saying teasingly)- " My Small girl.. little baby"
Mishti - " You are bad Nana, you make me cry, I will never talk to you"
Nana( sweetly)- " Okay don't talk, but this Butterscotch ice-cream in the bowl is waiting for you"
Mishti - " No, I hate you, I hate you, I hate you, I dont want your Ice cream, please leave my room"
Nana got up & went to watch TV in his room. After an hour Mishti was feeling hungry as it was 3 pm she went tothe Kitchen and saw all kinds of tasty items cooked for lunch, only eaten by Nani.
Mishti thought- "Nani eats at 1pm, Nana eats with me at 2 pm, but looks like no one has eaten today, why what is the matter".
She went back to her room without eating anything, she thought of her fight with Nana & how bad Nana has become & frowned.She suddenly recalled something & rushed to Nana's room at 3:35pm.
Mishti- " Nana why dint you & Nani have your tasty lunch"
Nana (angrily)- " I dont want to eat that tasty lunch any more"
Nana was fixated to the TV. Mishti went back & came back to Nana's room at 4:15 pm with a tray of few tasty lunchfood in it.
Mishti(crying)- "Nana sorry I-the big girl missed saying this-- Happy Birthday Nana & I dont hate you".
She took a spoonful of rice & curry & then Nana's favourite ButterScotch Ice-cream & gave it to him for she knew he had not eaten since morning for he wished only to celebrate his 60th Birthday with Mishti (whom he dearly loved) at lunch & hear the words again "Happy Birthday"(which no one had remembered or said to him in the last 30 years ).

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Starry Starry Night says Chiki Miki

Starry Starry Night;
Potraits Hung in empty halls;
Frameless heads on nameless walls
With eyes that watch the world and can't forget;
Like the strangers that you've met
The ragged men in ragged clothes;
The silver thorn, a bloody rose;
Lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow.
Now I think I know;What you tried to say, to me;
And how you suffered for your sanity;And how you tried to set them free:They would not listen; they're not listening still
--Perhaps they never will..........
I rewinded my favorite song again. Suddenly there was knock at my door. I saw Chiki-Miki standing on the door. Chiki-Miki was staring at the pink and grey checkered floor, he walked into my room and like always kept standing, I had to force him to sit.Today he sat comfortably on the bed as opposed to the ancient chair in the room near the window.Suddenly he started talking as opposed to nodding his head.
Chiki Miki said-- "You were listening to Starry Starry nights by Don Mclean. Can I hear it too?" I gave him my old sony walkman of school.
After listening Chiki Miki said-- "You know this song Don Mclean wrote in 1971 for Vincent,Vincent van Gogh-- the famous painter, a dutch/ finnish, I suppose. He had a deep admiration for Vincent as a man too.He makes reference to his famous paintings of luminous orange, yellow flowers, self potraits, landscapes etc. in the song. But you know he was in Saint Remy still he painted with his mind"
I knew Chiki Miki was a very good painter since he was a child of 3, he had painted, sketched, crafted many drawings, won competitions tillhe was hospitalised when he was 16years 2 months old.

Chiki Miki said-- " I am 20 and I am remebering things, i can differentiate, i can hold the spoon and eat by myself, I can read and u know I can hold the brush too, the pen too. Do you want to see how i hold the brush."
I rushed and gave a Round size 6 paint brush, paints & sheet even when i knew his favorite is the rigged size 5 brush.He was earlier very particular paint brushes, colors, sheets, canvses, glasses, stones, pots etc....He painted a beautiful deer.

Chiki Miki said--" You know last one month i have been trying to tell you, I can now hold the brush but I cud never speak.You know of my illness, I sometimes even now keep hearing strange voices in my head, motionless, can't gather my thoughts and words,Like many others I keep staring without blinking like I am fixated in a rigid pose for hours like Catatonia. You are suprised how I know it.. I am ill , of what I dont know . At 20 i am better I remember my colors and brushes.You understand me , right even when i am quiet. "
I was quiet and smiled saying Yes. He kept sitting comfortably on the bed for about 16 minutes staring again, this time at the painting.After this he got up to go, I stopped him and pulled out a new pack of paints, brushes & canvas.
Chiki Miki Said-" I cudnt hold the brush then, when Papa got these for me 4 years back and I threw them away, so these paints got angry with me.They dont know how much I love them. Can I take them back in my life."
He began to cry, I was happy--he finally wanted his colors again.Chiki Miki took the things, going back to his room. He turned around and said--- " Thanks Nasty, you are the best sister. I will go with you to the resturant & eat food properly, next time." He left.
I smiled and switched on the walkman--- Don Mclean's lyrics ---

Starry, starry night
Paint your palette blue and gray
Look out on a summer's day

With eyes that know the darkness in my soul...
Shadows on the hills

Sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chillsIn colors on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand, What you tried to say, to me
And how you suffered for your sanity, And how you tried to set them free:
They would not listen; they did not know how
--Perhaps they'll listen now ----

Ps- The picture is the painting by Van Gogh--Starry Nights