Its 4:30 am in the morning here and absolutely awake thinking of nothingness and emptiness within and outside.
A thought which passes my mind- Life has way of letting you know that the solutions to your situation are going to be arrived at by following your hunches and listening to your body. Trusting one's instincts and carry happiness with you instead of searching for it before setting out on the journey called life.
Life has a way of teaching lessons by creating situations which we never want to be in & hear words like " you are over", " I dont forsee any future", "DOnt you get it - it doesnt exist", " stop being a social obligation" ," you are a torture"
Ultimate admonition to be yourself, to go for it- says someone !
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Clingy was here-- Forgot LET GO
Its very hard to let go of something even when you think in your head you have let go or have been rattling -Let go, precisely due to the reason that a small teeny weeny memory and kick start and back fire in a bad way, leading to absolute drainage of the emotional self & others.
These days my mind is hovering again with Transformation- Death +Tower along with Drainage ( five of coins)and CLingy ( 4 of coins). This combination is devastating I suppose as it seems to be cyclic.
More Pronounced of all is Clingy ( 4 of coins)--This card is not rigid but I would say Mr. Clingy. Having a desire to cling to a romance that your lover and maybe you have both outgrown; this holding on will pass when there is realization of futility. This tendency is to hold on and on and dig your own grave. Again it makes me feel of lack of vision or unable to put a stop to self-destructive cyclic pattern & combined with the loss, grief, wandering, loneliness.
Looks like I am again in the state-Destruction+ Clingy ( too bad)-->Hanged Man ( very bad )..:( :( :( :(
lastly I would say if you know me by now you will help me LET GO of CLINGY at any cost !!
These days my mind is hovering again with Transformation- Death +Tower along with Drainage ( five of coins)and CLingy ( 4 of coins). This combination is devastating I suppose as it seems to be cyclic.
More Pronounced of all is Clingy ( 4 of coins)--This card is not rigid but I would say Mr. Clingy. Having a desire to cling to a romance that your lover and maybe you have both outgrown; this holding on will pass when there is realization of futility. This tendency is to hold on and on and dig your own grave. Again it makes me feel of lack of vision or unable to put a stop to self-destructive cyclic pattern & combined with the loss, grief, wandering, loneliness.
Looks like I am again in the state-Destruction+ Clingy ( too bad)-->Hanged Man ( very bad )..:( :( :( :(
lastly I would say if you know me by now you will help me LET GO of CLINGY at any cost !!
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