Yours Truly- Agitated

Yours truly- David Coverdale said...when agitated

I dont know where I am going But sure know that i've been hanging on the promises in songs of yesterday

Here I go Again on my own/going Down the only road Ive ever known, like a drifter I was born to walk alone.... I have made up my mind I aint wasting no more time

Yours Truly -Ripz said...when sad & agitated

It just ironic I (Ripz) havent made up my mind, still in suspended state, holding on to nothing and I am wondering when will I stop wasting my time.. & walk on the right road !!!!

Here I go again.........

My Playlist

These days i am listening to these songs --here n there

Spin Doctors- Two Princes
White Snake- IS this the love, Here I go Again, Solider of Fortune, Deeper the Love
Led Zepplin - Stairway to Heaven
GnR- November Rain
Tracy Chapman- Fast cars
John Lennon - Annies Song, Rhyme and reason
Poets of the Fall- Late Good Bye, Carnival of Lust
Poison- Every Rose has it thorn
Nirvana- come as you are, All Apologies, Teen Spirit
evanenescene- My Immortal
Roxette- Mustve been love, She's got the look.
Metallica- Nothing else matters, Enter Sandman, Unforgiven, Sad But true, Whereever I may roam
Red Hot chilli peppers- give away now,sometimes i feel that i donthave a partner so
Lisa Loeb- Stay
Nickelback- Far Away
London Calling- Ive been thinking about you
REM - Man on the Moon,Shiny Happy People

Sweet Nothings !!!

Apart from the fact that my days are filled with staring blankly at the wall or my laptop,my mind is continously filled up & I am realised by family/friends on " how to choose a right marriage partner" to " how immature i have been to all this while" to " How I should get married now " to "How agonising my life" is to "How love alone is not important" to "How scarred i might be i.e: beyond comprehension" to "How it is great to be taken care of" !!!

Few questions I am asked to ponder while feeling with my heart and utilising my brain --aka Formula One

1) Accept yourself and the other person i.e: after interacting with them for a few days. Accept the reality of each other
2) Liking is very important. You need to like the other person as a human being ( I thot i was a human being too)
3) COmpatibility of values & spirituality ( not religion)- This part i need to figure out.
4) Compatibility in expression & discussion of feelings- I understand it is not shouting & howling when u have a fight
5) Ability to look positively at situations - together . I dont understand this
6) Lover is not enough-- you need stability & a satisfying life.
7) Keep Jerks/Jolts out of your - the way you prefer to call them.i.e: Jerks are derivatives of derivatives !!!

I was bogged down after jotting these down and even more interesting despite the empty mind and days my heart is still overflowing...
Maybe it is truly a case of ---
too much love and yet not well enough
too much to give but not well receieved

Freaky Monday ' Middle Finger Kind' Morning ---Blues

Somedays are one one of it kinds and it gets even worse when its Monday Morning !!

I wake up early in the morning.. A dog was following me all the way to the fitness center...I happily send nice messages to someone and here nobody sends me a loving message back-- except a ' Good Morning'which made me sulk, analyse, overanalyse ... I fought with the auto wala for mere 20 bucks....The office is empty and luks like everyone around is on leave except me...My Mom calls me and yells at me for the obvious reasons i know....I say 'Sorry' to a stupid girl for no reason just to resolve an issue i have no clue about....My v good friend has started flirting with me which made me sob and feel i lost a friend & respect for him...My Billing issue is not sorted out...

Worst I an missing home... even worse I showed a middle finger to roadside romeo & lecher who was being nasty !!

I am irritated very irritated... Freaky Monday....Monday Blues.. Monday Morning Blues...

Formula Championship !!!!

Friend 1- Why do you like this person??
Friend 2- I like him because I feel I like him.I am an emotional person.
Friend 1- Are u sure its real emotions and not the chemicals in you !!!
Friend 2- I usually know when I meet a person whether i like him !!
friend 1- Interesting, so what are the parameters on which u like someone when you want to get in a serious relationship
Friend 2- eheemm !! I just know it, out of love,emotions
Friend 1- #$%%%*%)$)&^%$@

Friend 1- You need to have strategy/formulas of your own after all you have been dating from the last 10 years of your life.
Friend 2- Had I known the correct formula I wont be banging my head on the wall.Phew !!!!

I think most of us have been through similar situations at some point in time. It is very interesting that of all the different people I have met -who had & still have a successful relationship have told me different forumalas.

Formula One- Your so called emotions could be chemicals, adreanlines acting. Use your head too, eg: whether you have smilarities or not, cos eventually you dont want to be stuck with someone with whom u are poles apart.

Formula Two- It always your instinct, gut, emotions and how you feel at point in time about a person is the answer

Formula 3- Have options as many as possible and then see how u feel about them, be choosy. Look at the materialistic side of things too.

Formula 4-Dont get desperate, stay, analyse, feel with a cool head & keep your past aside and let things happen by themselves.

Formula 5- Leave it to God. Dont get attached.

After listening to all the 'n' number of formulas recently my head is spining round and round and I am going back and forth in my head --Heart and emotions are anyways loitering around & wasting time.

Eventually I have concluded and accepted--I have zero formulas/strategies to cling- no head no heart combination.
But for now i surely need to accept and love myself and let go :).. let go.....let go....to glory !!!!!!!

Just Like- Stairway to Heaven

After a long time today I faintly heard GnR being played on some one's PC in the office. It brought back memories of difficult yet loving relationship/s to me which may or may not be existing today. Contradictingly --It even makes me dream of something which is still in hiding. It is one of my favourite songs.



When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
COs nothin lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle, In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just trying to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's letting go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowing that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walking
In the cold November rain