Formula Championship !!!!

Friend 1- Why do you like this person??
Friend 2- I like him because I feel I like him.I am an emotional person.
Friend 1- Are u sure its real emotions and not the chemicals in you !!!
Friend 2- I usually know when I meet a person whether i like him !!
friend 1- Interesting, so what are the parameters on which u like someone when you want to get in a serious relationship
Friend 2- eheemm !! I just know it, out of love,emotions
Friend 1- #$%%%*%)$)&^%$@

Friend 1- You need to have strategy/formulas of your own after all you have been dating from the last 10 years of your life.
Friend 2- Had I known the correct formula I wont be banging my head on the wall.Phew !!!!

I think most of us have been through similar situations at some point in time. It is very interesting that of all the different people I have met -who had & still have a successful relationship have told me different forumalas.

Formula One- Your so called emotions could be chemicals, adreanlines acting. Use your head too, eg: whether you have smilarities or not, cos eventually you dont want to be stuck with someone with whom u are poles apart.

Formula Two- It always your instinct, gut, emotions and how you feel at point in time about a person is the answer

Formula 3- Have options as many as possible and then see how u feel about them, be choosy. Look at the materialistic side of things too.

Formula 4-Dont get desperate, stay, analyse, feel with a cool head & keep your past aside and let things happen by themselves.

Formula 5- Leave it to God. Dont get attached.

After listening to all the 'n' number of formulas recently my head is spining round and round and I am going back and forth in my head --Heart and emotions are anyways loitering around & wasting time.

Eventually I have concluded and accepted--I have zero formulas/strategies to cling- no head no heart combination.
But for now i surely need to accept and love myself and let go :).. let go.....let go....to glory !!!!!!!

Just Like- Stairway to Heaven

After a long time today I faintly heard GnR being played on some one's PC in the office. It brought back memories of difficult yet loving relationship/s to me which may or may not be existing today. Contradictingly --It even makes me dream of something which is still in hiding. It is one of my favourite songs.



When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
COs nothin lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle, In the cold November rain
We've been through this such a long long time
Just trying to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's letting go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowing that you were mine
All mine
So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walking
In the cold November rain

Hanged Man

Last few hours the only word hovering on my mind is the Hanged Man. THere have been certain times wherein for days /months together there was a word which constantly struck me every now and then. For Instance last year April 2009- Nov 2009 the word was transformation the Card of Death and yes some events did made me realise it was indeed time for Transformation. ( Knowing an event before it actually happens)
But what is scaring me is the Hanged Man this has always scared me along with the word destruction or Tower,it represents

Sacrifice ----- Letting go ----- Surrendering ----- Passivity
Suspension ----- Acceptance ----- Renunciation ----- Patience
New point of view ----- Contemplation ----- Inner harmony
Conformism ----- Nonaction ----- Waiting ----- Giving up

Looks like I am in the Uttter state or flow of---Transformation->Destruction-->Hanged Man ( very bad )..:( :( :( :(

True Indeed

In today' time it very easy to let go off things in life/relationships, avoid, revenge, dump & not hold on to IT.
But still there is a truth, beauty in going all the way through the drama, vacumm and still holding on to it. :)Cos it really tells you that you are indeed special

Have a Little faith in me

Ive been loving you, for such a long, long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
Cause for us, there is no end
And all you gotta do, is have a little faith in me
And your love, gives me strength enough to
Have a little faith in me ....and yourself

Emotional Hydraulics

People who know kayaking and other river sports know that there are areas of the river where the water flows in a dangerous circular motion. Instead of moving forward, it turns back on itself. Such a spot can be almost impossible to escape from. In the same way, we can get stuck in emotional hydraulics.

There are periods of self-absorption. If you are self-absorbed, you refer everything back to your own interests and desires - nothing much gets in or out. It is a spot impossible to escape.

Sometimes continuous oppression leads to tiredness i.e: carrying out the same struggle again for too long with no acceptance. Another avenue could be apathy & indifference-i.e: no more temptation no matter how attractive the external may seem to, or simply leading to defensiveness i.e: neither acceptance or rejection.

Maybe it is all about soul searching, letting negative attitudes/patterns & non acceptance go away/letgo with positive self reflection & renewal ( whether accepted/cared by others or not)
&
Say "Though I may have lost my way, the light of truth has saved the day. Now every day, in every way, I am getting better and better and I will be on my way again".

Harvesting Season- Realization + Oppression

Ask a farmer about the harvesting season and it brings all smiles to him/her.
He /she reaps a bountiful reward for the hard work in his harvest and perhaps represents his/her own harvest usually after long struggle.
We have such harvesting moments/seasons. It clearly means to us -we have fulfilled a creative venture, realized a dream and now must deal with the consequences of that fulfillment.
The realization of a creative vision, however, often carries with it the weight of responsibility. It is so strange sometimes that in the entire process we are unwilling to let go of excessive responsibility or lack the freshness of the original vision after it has been fulfilled or we imbibe what we see around.


It is so funny in some cases when we start things we have the spirit of the Fool so carefree, excited not thinking about the pitfalls but as we move ahead we take too much burden. The burden is at times so difficult to let go or lead a balance approach because the venture & the realization suddenly has more worth than our own mental, emotional , spiritual health/existence.

Often we see in personal relationships ( which is very confusing) " one who bends backwards" takes responsibility to make it work and the other person is not even aware or ignores the fact that how much responsibility the other person is taking.

In all I am beginning to think-

Is it that the moment one feels- carrying the excess burden, heart in pain, oppression, giving too much, over committed one needs to stop working hard or at least pace oneself in a balanced way.

or

Is it knowingly/unknowingly misuse of one's energy

or

Is it one's destiny - i.e:One will have to fight uphill for every little gain. Each step will feel like a struggle which maybe only one's imagination

or

Is it the way how life is - Do your karma and never expect anything, it will all happen for you good