Re-realization- The karma factor
Last week I read some books of Osho - again reading & introspection was something which I gave up since years. In my current phase of introspection like many others I felt ,always a feeling of "Repent".
Recently visited a chapel, I met the sister whom I knew since I was 10 years, I was aimlessly & endlessly crying confessing of how much I have feeling of "Repentance", the confessions of guilt & loneliness. Even narrated the episode of giving so much importance to money & not people.
Interestingly some hours back was enlighted.According to Jesus- "Repent" simply means " Return" by no means it mean"repentance", which is feeling of guilt and confession. Turn in means returing to the source i.e" returning to your own being- introspect, confess & work on all the wrongs that you have done.
Very Clear- Repent is not ugly, its not arrogance, only guilt, confession but returning to oneself- not to waste time, accept & improve on the consciousness- the karma.Interestingly Awareness leads to another ascpect you will feel you never committed a sin. I mentioned that happiness is in realization but I further realise it is more enlighted in karma- consciousness.
No salvation is needed, all what is needed is to shake up & wake up--- (even if it sometimes turns to be too late & again not to be accepted again & again)
Truly --- Best things in life are free, every time I discover what you mean to me !!
Monday, May 28, 2007
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
In Love- Always on the Rocks
In Love- The original sin
Long before- Adam & Eve after eating the fruit of knowledge got awareness, they felt ashamed. The reason awareness lead to ego, the fruit of knowledge created ego. Ego created the idea of superiority.
Interestingly in today's world our Adams & Eves see no beyond their Ego and superiority- coined as my priorties, my need, my dreams, my desire ( In Short everything revolving around the word -"I" not "Us"). Forgiveness, acceptance in this jet age - I guess are rare to find. Despite all the anger and frustration of being cheated, not being accepted, not been forgiven, not enough love, not enough time for me still we dont desire for a Sacchrine or homeopathic form of love.
Lets call our Ego & Superiority driven Adam & Eve - Popo & Roro ( respectively ;))
The interesting form of Roro & Popo's relationship is- Problem of misunderstanding. Both are in different worlds, the poles of consciousness are opposite.
Roro is Intutive - Popo is intellectual. Our lady Roro jumps to conclusion with any thought process. Popo has this problem of coming hard to a conclusion but Roro just jumps to conclusion. Popo doesnt know he cannot deceive Roro ( simple natures funda).
Popo's mind goes zig-zag and Roro our lady is direct just like an arrow. Our man Popo doesnt realise, she never listens only looks in the eyes and here the man is caught- Roro always read the body language or the tone.
There is forever conflict between Roro & Popo, always on the rocks. Popo cannot fall asleep, Roro will not allow him too or vice versa. They go on goading each other. Still Roro truly loves , trusts Popo and vice versa .That is what is " Love", " Attraction", " Forgiveness- atleast trying to".
Roro and Popo are just examples, with a man & woman there is bound to be conflict, ego, tussle. It is the tussle which makes both of them go far far away and again and again creates situations of mini honeymoons. Interestingly not sacchrine at all.
The awareness of relationship between a man & a woman is deep, only by going deep will they get know what is or what are they short of. Despite all it never brings in contentment. The Love, the ego, the tussle, trust brings in element of deph, adventure, surprise, more understanding, improvement, ability to accept- Ofcourse more nagging.
What I really feel is it is essential to witness it and to witness bonding of love & trust . Someone mentioned to me once, it is the same for Love :
There are no unlockable doors
There are no unwinnable wars
There are no unforgiveable sins
There are no unrightable wrongs
There are no impossible dreams
There are no unliveable moments
I guess the same goes for "Love"- The original sin --- Always on the rocks ;)
Raat hai tu savera bhi hoga hai savera tu basera bhi hoga !!
Long before- Adam & Eve after eating the fruit of knowledge got awareness, they felt ashamed. The reason awareness lead to ego, the fruit of knowledge created ego. Ego created the idea of superiority.
Interestingly in today's world our Adams & Eves see no beyond their Ego and superiority- coined as my priorties, my need, my dreams, my desire ( In Short everything revolving around the word -"I" not "Us"). Forgiveness, acceptance in this jet age - I guess are rare to find. Despite all the anger and frustration of being cheated, not being accepted, not been forgiven, not enough love, not enough time for me still we dont desire for a Sacchrine or homeopathic form of love.
Lets call our Ego & Superiority driven Adam & Eve - Popo & Roro ( respectively ;))
The interesting form of Roro & Popo's relationship is- Problem of misunderstanding. Both are in different worlds, the poles of consciousness are opposite.
Roro is Intutive - Popo is intellectual. Our lady Roro jumps to conclusion with any thought process. Popo has this problem of coming hard to a conclusion but Roro just jumps to conclusion. Popo doesnt know he cannot deceive Roro ( simple natures funda).
Popo's mind goes zig-zag and Roro our lady is direct just like an arrow. Our man Popo doesnt realise, she never listens only looks in the eyes and here the man is caught- Roro always read the body language or the tone.
There is forever conflict between Roro & Popo, always on the rocks. Popo cannot fall asleep, Roro will not allow him too or vice versa. They go on goading each other. Still Roro truly loves , trusts Popo and vice versa .That is what is " Love", " Attraction", " Forgiveness- atleast trying to".
Roro and Popo are just examples, with a man & woman there is bound to be conflict, ego, tussle. It is the tussle which makes both of them go far far away and again and again creates situations of mini honeymoons. Interestingly not sacchrine at all.
The awareness of relationship between a man & a woman is deep, only by going deep will they get know what is or what are they short of. Despite all it never brings in contentment. The Love, the ego, the tussle, trust brings in element of deph, adventure, surprise, more understanding, improvement, ability to accept- Ofcourse more nagging.
What I really feel is it is essential to witness it and to witness bonding of love & trust . Someone mentioned to me once, it is the same for Love :
There are no unlockable doors
There are no unwinnable wars
There are no unforgiveable sins
There are no unrightable wrongs
There are no impossible dreams
There are no unliveable moments
I guess the same goes for "Love"- The original sin --- Always on the rocks ;)
Raat hai tu savera bhi hoga hai savera tu basera bhi hoga !!
Saturday, May 19, 2007
Inner Voice 1- Healing Centre
Hope trust - Healing Centre
This article is based on my interaction with a Person-A & very close to me currently in the Healing Centre- A drug Rehabilition Centre & some research.
Person 1
A 29 year old, a reserved gentleman, a brown sugar drug addict since the age of 21. Intially took drugs for fun, gradually got addicted to it. Due to drug addiction he wasnt able to graduate. He fellow friends moved on with their lives.He cannot recover from the damage caused to his life due to addiction. Its been 2 weeks he has been in the rehab, he still feels aimless.
Person 2
A 30-35 year old, married with a child. A drug addict, his history- Broken Love, his version his hopes, dreams died eversince he was forced to marry elsewhere. Now a loner, very reserved, was forcibly left at the rehab he has no aim and no intention to survive or live.
Person 3
A 19 year old student pursuing engineering from a top-notch engineering college. Tried drugs for fun, got addicted , his parents realized his early symptoms and today in some days he will be going home.
Unlike the above three, Person 4- A 23 year old, only child of a rich businessman died due to brain haemorrage due to drug overdose, he too felt he led an aimless life. Sad but true !!
Interestingly most the people at the healing centres are indiviuals who feel or felt majorly dejected, stresses, lonely at various phases of life. On meeting the family members of Person -A, i felt grief, in the real sense addiction is a family disease.
I have seen his parents cry, curse themselves, feeling guilty all the time, sucidical tendency. In short -very de-stable.The family memebers of the addicts go through an emotional roller coaster which is never ending.
As the problem increased of the addicts the family becomes more emotionally ill, suppressed, isolated, having sucidial tendency.The family members experience- Guilt, shame, grief, anger,denial, low self worth,humiliated, terrible loneliness.
Person A is currently in The Healing Centre- has special therapy sessions & various communication courses. These courses focus on making the indiviual- share experiences, find out root problems, improve on self worth,be acceptable to self& the world,disciplined ( not to take life and people for granted).
Along with the therapy sessions of the indiviual there are certain counseling sessions, pshyco-therapy sessions, family therapy sessions too. There are certain detox processes involved in the healing process- all of which have withdrawal symptoms- it is quite shocking to see an indiviual in that stage.although the detox stages are notably maintained specifically but it is the emotional detox which is the most difficult as it takes considerable to chnage the emotional health of a person.
Person A is currently in a long term treatment course, this can vary from 4-5 months to mor than a year depending on the healing up stage of the person.
What i found by interaction & reserach is - these treatment sessions focus on examine damaged emotional state, re-build self worth, self belief & concepts, adaptability to living again in the external environment,ability & strength to face the world again, behaviorial patterns, interaction with others & accept oneself.
During the initial of the course it is required to be determine the extend of the addiction of the indiviual based on which certain therpaies & counseling sessions are formed. This is again important as this is very delicate & the indiviual is very defensive.The recovery procedure at the Healing Centre is to unlearn a habit,to willing work out a solution, Recovery it is to be stable in one's life long after the treatment too.
Another fact Person A has been in the Healing Centre for the third time. I alway pray I see the same Person A whom i knew eversince i was a kid.
Sometimes I really think, there have been various stages in our lives when we feel worth less & seek a helping hand. This could be due to a drug problem or emotional problem, In fact we all need is a HEALING TOUCH- Ek pyar ki jhappi !!
This article is based on my interaction with a Person-A & very close to me currently in the Healing Centre- A drug Rehabilition Centre & some research.
Person 1
A 29 year old, a reserved gentleman, a brown sugar drug addict since the age of 21. Intially took drugs for fun, gradually got addicted to it. Due to drug addiction he wasnt able to graduate. He fellow friends moved on with their lives.He cannot recover from the damage caused to his life due to addiction. Its been 2 weeks he has been in the rehab, he still feels aimless.
Person 2
A 30-35 year old, married with a child. A drug addict, his history- Broken Love, his version his hopes, dreams died eversince he was forced to marry elsewhere. Now a loner, very reserved, was forcibly left at the rehab he has no aim and no intention to survive or live.
Person 3
A 19 year old student pursuing engineering from a top-notch engineering college. Tried drugs for fun, got addicted , his parents realized his early symptoms and today in some days he will be going home.
Unlike the above three, Person 4- A 23 year old, only child of a rich businessman died due to brain haemorrage due to drug overdose, he too felt he led an aimless life. Sad but true !!
Interestingly most the people at the healing centres are indiviuals who feel or felt majorly dejected, stresses, lonely at various phases of life. On meeting the family members of Person -A, i felt grief, in the real sense addiction is a family disease.
I have seen his parents cry, curse themselves, feeling guilty all the time, sucidical tendency. In short -very de-stable.The family memebers of the addicts go through an emotional roller coaster which is never ending.
As the problem increased of the addicts the family becomes more emotionally ill, suppressed, isolated, having sucidial tendency.The family members experience- Guilt, shame, grief, anger,denial, low self worth,humiliated, terrible loneliness.
Person A is currently in The Healing Centre- has special therapy sessions & various communication courses. These courses focus on making the indiviual- share experiences, find out root problems, improve on self worth,be acceptable to self& the world,disciplined ( not to take life and people for granted).
Along with the therapy sessions of the indiviual there are certain counseling sessions, pshyco-therapy sessions, family therapy sessions too. There are certain detox processes involved in the healing process- all of which have withdrawal symptoms- it is quite shocking to see an indiviual in that stage.although the detox stages are notably maintained specifically but it is the emotional detox which is the most difficult as it takes considerable to chnage the emotional health of a person.
Person A is currently in a long term treatment course, this can vary from 4-5 months to mor than a year depending on the healing up stage of the person.
What i found by interaction & reserach is - these treatment sessions focus on examine damaged emotional state, re-build self worth, self belief & concepts, adaptability to living again in the external environment,ability & strength to face the world again, behaviorial patterns, interaction with others & accept oneself.
During the initial of the course it is required to be determine the extend of the addiction of the indiviual based on which certain therpaies & counseling sessions are formed. This is again important as this is very delicate & the indiviual is very defensive.The recovery procedure at the Healing Centre is to unlearn a habit,to willing work out a solution, Recovery it is to be stable in one's life long after the treatment too.
Another fact Person A has been in the Healing Centre for the third time. I alway pray I see the same Person A whom i knew eversince i was a kid.
Sometimes I really think, there have been various stages in our lives when we feel worth less & seek a helping hand. This could be due to a drug problem or emotional problem, In fact we all need is a HEALING TOUCH- Ek pyar ki jhappi !!
Friday, May 18, 2007
"IN"---Neverland
" IN"
Climb until thee falls in,
Walk on by alongside the new grass,
Music is spinning above,
Glittering & sparkling above
Turn around and embrace it all.
Dream on for the moment
Chisel will cut it,
They will sharpen it until thee returns
Forever lost in the net
Swing in like the play
Sleep for you are in..in...Neverland!!
Few lines about Neverland- Our Dreams. Have ever had a dream which was for sure -real.. Have you ever been able to distinguish between the real & reel dream worlds...Have you ever felt you are forever finding Neverland !!
I wrote when i was 21, just typed it rightaway the moment i opened my school time scribble pad. :)
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Best Things in life are free !!!
Its all about the money.. its all about the dum dum dida dum dum..Its all about the money.. and I guess we got it all wrong all the way, we show do strange things of showing how much we care, when we dont seem to care all Its all about the money !!- Song by Mandy Moore !!
Question is Where is all the love.. where is my conscience !!
Witnessing from the Misfortunes of my own and others, I realised that money can never sober you.The desire to earn more, makes one blindfolded.Recently felt that protecting money is the only obession left in today's world.. the "MONEY" has so much control over our lives that we tend to forget ---Money is meant to be used for oneself & for others , not be buried in the back yard... its something which you cannot take to your grave.
I was once asked-- would i spend my time with the children in the orphange i.e: spend time give them a feeling that someone is still willing to take care of them.. wants them..Contrary to that my answer was I would donate money to the orphange.. just like anybody i considered money to be the most important possession of life. As they say money can never buy love care and happineess..very true !!
i think about those children and people who are living their life in loneliness & despair who know at every moment of their life they need to witness all by themselves. The very feeling that atleast someone for moment could tell them how important they are, how worthy they are to be loved , to be fed and not be left in a state of non-acceptance.I feel great respect for the person who made me realise that money is just one component of life and that happiness lies within, happiness can be gained by giving love, affection to people who need it- something which i forgot eversince I left school.
In my quest to reach to the top & self actualise, my philosophy- to be overwhelmed by money-- a guiding factor to control my life. Its true for many people of my generation. we have forgotten- conscience. According to Shakespere Richards III play ( quote) :
My conscience has thousands several tongues, every tongue has several tales and every tale condemns me as a villian
Perhaps this is called self realisation- the form to re-discover self and experiencing transformation.Truly money can not always bring happy moments, the warmth of a loved one, the little surpirses, the tears of happiness, the abundance of love, and ofcourse the enlightenment & realisation..
Best things in life are free.... now that i discovered what you mean to me !!
Question is Where is all the love.. where is my conscience !!
Witnessing from the Misfortunes of my own and others, I realised that money can never sober you.The desire to earn more, makes one blindfolded.Recently felt that protecting money is the only obession left in today's world.. the "MONEY" has so much control over our lives that we tend to forget ---Money is meant to be used for oneself & for others , not be buried in the back yard... its something which you cannot take to your grave.
I was once asked-- would i spend my time with the children in the orphange i.e: spend time give them a feeling that someone is still willing to take care of them.. wants them..Contrary to that my answer was I would donate money to the orphange.. just like anybody i considered money to be the most important possession of life. As they say money can never buy love care and happineess..very true !!
i think about those children and people who are living their life in loneliness & despair who know at every moment of their life they need to witness all by themselves. The very feeling that atleast someone for moment could tell them how important they are, how worthy they are to be loved , to be fed and not be left in a state of non-acceptance.I feel great respect for the person who made me realise that money is just one component of life and that happiness lies within, happiness can be gained by giving love, affection to people who need it- something which i forgot eversince I left school.
In my quest to reach to the top & self actualise, my philosophy- to be overwhelmed by money-- a guiding factor to control my life. Its true for many people of my generation. we have forgotten- conscience. According to Shakespere Richards III play ( quote) :
My conscience has thousands several tongues, every tongue has several tales and every tale condemns me as a villian
Perhaps this is called self realisation- the form to re-discover self and experiencing transformation.Truly money can not always bring happy moments, the warmth of a loved one, the little surpirses, the tears of happiness, the abundance of love, and ofcourse the enlightenment & realisation..
Best things in life are free.... now that i discovered what you mean to me !!
Sunday, May 6, 2007
Phoneix
Every day I die but I am born to be reborn the next moment
Cos the ashes of my existence is the one with which i carry on !
Every twinkling star in the sky is the reminder of my lost innocence
The Innocence which I know, I will see in " Myself" one day " Again"!
Some thoughts , which remind me every day that I have to move on even when everything else seems to be stand still !
Cos the ashes of my existence is the one with which i carry on !
Every twinkling star in the sky is the reminder of my lost innocence
The Innocence which I know, I will see in " Myself" one day " Again"!
Some thoughts , which remind me every day that I have to move on even when everything else seems to be stand still !
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Me Too...
I try to reach a place,
A safety zoneI try to separate myself, be my ownI try to find that one solemn ground
I try to make it through with no one around
The harder things in life I want to surpass
The many special bonds I want to last
The wrong choices I won't regret
The path ahead I shouldn't fret
A shoulder to cry on I'll always find
A memory so clear, embedded in my mind
A tear once cried from my unending pain
A heart once broken and the strength I gained
Nobody can try to break me, make me fall
I may be physically short, but I stand tall
So maybe you think nobody understands
But I say you're not alone, come take my hands
A safety zoneI try to separate myself, be my ownI try to find that one solemn ground
I try to make it through with no one around
The harder things in life I want to surpass
The many special bonds I want to last
The wrong choices I won't regret
The path ahead I shouldn't fret
A shoulder to cry on I'll always find
A memory so clear, embedded in my mind
A tear once cried from my unending pain
A heart once broken and the strength I gained
Nobody can try to break me, make me fall
I may be physically short, but I stand tall
So maybe you think nobody understands
But I say you're not alone, come take my hands
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